When the Smell of Sugar Fades Away
When I hear yelling, I carry myself
Up the stairs and around the right bend
Then turn left into the little place
After we transformed it
Into a place I couldn't imagine before
We shouldn't just ignore it
I go to my oasis when feelings take over
The ones I wish wouldn't exist
I go there when I have no more patience
And even clouds seem to get in my way
When the smell of sugar fades away, and I need a helping hand
I'm taken by the dim light that keeps me awake
I'm swallowed by the mountains of adventures packaged into one place
Of fairy tales that only the younger me believed were true
Now I can finally face the truth- they can't happen
The world isn't all black and white
And nothing has a pure "happy" ending
I still take pleasure in reading them- it gives me a glimpse of the younger me, the past one that believed
Even though she didn't have many chances to do everything she wanted to do
She never had to face the feelings that I wish wouldn't exist
When the smell of sugar fades away
I seem to melt like I won't see another day
But the soft space and the books are like my best friend
They come alive as I walk inside again
The clink of the crescent moon beating a rhythm against the lamp
The blanket seems to dance as I quietly think
I close my eyes, and dream of peace
My feelings disappear when I wake up next
The anger resides, and I stay a minute and rest
I travel miles, it seems, to my oasis
When the smell of sugar fades away
But after that, it always comes back again
I owe a lot to the smell of sugar
That opened my eyes, and seemed to say
That everyone needs a time to think
