Decision Of Write
The moment I picked up pen
was the accumulation
signaling manifold contributing factors.
A step taken inevitably
against reasoned desire.
When exhausted body
battered mind desperately
desired attainment, to enter,
hallowed sanctified portals.
Promising blessed sweet sleep.
Obsessed.
Plagued days
treacherous nights
on unmitigated end.
Motivating
to this tethered point
issuing bodily command.
Formally issued
at obedient minds
reluctant acceptance.
For I was at an age
a point
reached in time.
Tipped
finely hung balance.
Rushing thought
came surging
forth in torrents.
Will
summoned
in guard.
Swept away
leaving only
scattered remnants.
Flooded broken defence.
Mind stood alone,
blinking, naked,
before horizon’s
looming advancing chaotic choice.
Approaching
in overwhelming
multitude.
Open uprooted
drifting aimlessly.
Before mountainous
sweeping
waves of indecision.
The reason meaning
behind life
indelible actions;
now belatedly
confronted edges;
demanded
to be grappled with.
Sought Understood Known.
Directions found
for purposes
choices
in multiplicity
posing life
searched out.
Goals defined
enlarged upon.
First step; of leave-taking;
was taken.
Never
could we turn back.
On a journey like a needle.
Searched for in a shifting.
Wind blown hay-stack of husks.
All was changed
turning back
indomitable;
hands recording time.
Was blocked;
by universal will.
From precision point
to advancement.
We would
cipher
information formulate
thought
yielding
ever
refined properties.
Sifting dimensions
in levels
challenging consciousness.
Build
a few choice pieces
in scale tuned
multilevel attunement.
Over a period
embodying
doubting months.
To achieve
first enlightenment
pertaining works.
Symbolizing a scope
point of intensified
mental relief focus
not sort or realized
in numerous
lesser later works.
Remember
tormental twisting
nightmare.
Before
birth spun creation.
Catalytic turbine
emotion before
realization
attainment
unseen bodily change.
Contractions
occurring naturally
brought on
in assembled directed.
Support defining
developing stages.
Losing direction at times
in search prolonged.
Moments of sustained.
Heart pumping brilliant
neuro neural neuron
mind light embodiment.
In such moments
half an hour
an hour;
slipping by;
in seeming
heart beats.
Lost
in contemplation;
ever descending meaning;
enfolding a couple.
Sometimes less
than a single line.
Meaning
finally understood;
realized;
yet never brought.
Back past brink.
Containing
previous complete
understanding.
Known
in universally attuned;
subconscious;
inner mind.
Always dancing
freely frustratingly;
in a hungered region;
just beyond taunting;
seeking write reach.
Recognized intuitively.
Seen.
On point
embracing understanding
fleetingly.
In just beyond brink.
Returning to normality
leaves us
depressed in mood;
empty
hollow weak.
To carry on life
a task;
seemingly beyond;
one rendered
so mild and meek.
Depression
constantly hungers;
to claim;
low ebb life.
So battle of wills
is fought
acted upon.
As we aspire a sphere
all goodness golden wed.
A place where angels tread.
Copyright © Terence George Craddock
Written on the 8th of March 1989.
poem by Terence George Craddock
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