Looking Back
Did i ever have an actual chance on things?
Looking back at all the crazy things
I've had to deal with unimaginable things.
How could ever exist a fair relation based on the right reasons.
How could all of that been worth so little in the end.
What would have been without our life's encountering?
Much i wonder about that, still.
I can't find a way to look at a path infront me, only see what i left behind...
Or rather say what left me behind.
I can't think of any person or expierence in life that would hurt and dissappoint me more than you have.
Remember your night of collapsing...
It still dazzles me how one can go so far against their inner self.
Or how one can push inner thoughts and feelings so deep and force them silent.
What is real and what is it worth.
So far off place, why has it always been so easy for you?
Your entire life, wich is actually the irony.
Through dilemma's... dealing with it on such a low emotional and intelligent level.
Since ever with every emotionally dissrupting event... though plenty of chances, always easy way out.
I have stood by you through so much more than i should have.
Where would you have actually truthfully been on your own strength? for as much as you can call that strength.
Look at the core of your being, the very essence of what the true motivations are for every choice you make.
Or are you still living with your eyes covered in that attempt to fool yourself of utopia.
I so incredibly despise you, and everything and everyone attached to your fake life, your fake being.
You are the prime example of everything that is wrong in this deceitfull society.
You are the embodyment of lies.
You desserve to suffer from yourself.
Since 10 years i've known you and i've stood behind you through everything you struggled with.
And misery is all you left me with.
There is no greater shame i could ever feel than for you.
You have done so much more harm than you can ever imagine.
I truly hate you, and sincerely can say that in all honesty... i wish you dead.
And if ever such a chance comes up, i will destroy your life.
Just like you have torn apart mine...
That is how i feel, i will never ever forget untill i'm dead.
All your lies, all your treachery, the truth you bended as you saw fit.
I hope you never forget, because of you.. my heart will never rest.
poem by Lucas eman
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