You Don't Need To Tell Me You Don't Care
You don’t need to tell me you don’t care, not caring
is an environmental condition since humans became
too dangerous to trust their own minds as the world,
let themselves be morning doves in the phoenix-fire of the sumac,
or a light within a light like a planet in the dusk,
the pink lilac of Mercury, the flashing white
gardenia of Venus. Killing only lets you be
one thing else
after you’ve deleted all the rest. Not caring
is the shape of a final heart, the rose recast by the minerals
as stone, cell by cell, nest by nest, petrified
by the cuckoo whose young shoulder the eggs of its host out
like refugees that take over the government
that gives them shelter. Not caring
is an ancient battlefield in the morning
where crows and old women, idiots, wretches, dogs
plunder the dead lying like islands in the mist,
a cemetery of maggots that froze before
they could finish eating the horse. Not caring
is deciding to live without punctuation
because everywhere you went something got in your way
like crosswalks or streetlights, your desire for precious metals,
to drink the silver pure, frustrated everywhere
by the corroded goblets and encrustations
of people who smiled like ores and tons of granite. Not caring,
is a leftover of porous slag and a gaping quarry,
and the gifts of not caring are always accidental
and come wrapped in the skins of old enemies, a relic of fangs
that fell out like the phases of the moon
when the new ones with their upgraded toxins appeared. You don’t have to tell me you don’t care;
turn the rock of the world over in most,
shine a light in the corners between
the rafters in the damp basement, and you’ll see
a Nazi who wears black, kid leather gloves and breezy colognes
when he mutilates, Aryan bird wheels of destruction
frozen like galaxies and desecrated flowers in metal
arranged logically on the iconic desktop
of his universally translatable uniform, and this
is a man who doesn’t care, and this is a long, black, centipede;
and you’ll see his aspiring counterpart, a soldier
closer to home, a Chilean carabinero,
a mighty man with a can of gasoline and a condom
and a brutalized woman from the university
he rapes and burns at the side of the road back to his family,
the irisless eyes of two periods for proof he has fangs
and knows how to use his glands and organ
like a sun-tanned mamba in shades; and this
is a man who doesn’t care, and this, his machismo aside,
is a red army ant washing the general’s dirty underwear
like nettles in formic acid as he boils to be someone.
And over there, with headphones on, saline drips pumping
psychotic punk hormones through his neuronic circuitry
like flame-throwers in an air-conditioned ideology
that’s convinced it’s a tank in the deserts of Iraq,
is the boy next door who’s just made burgers and fries
of a five thousand year old Arab village
immolated like the villain of a video-game, all in the name
of a democratic republic that injects its mutable eggs
into the body of the living host
they will liberate, imperialize, and devour, and this
is a man who doesn’t care, a large, black wasp
trying to win the tiger stripes of a killer bee.
And there where the rat died dehydrated by an industrial poison,
if you look closely, beneath the sleek, moist pelt,
that puts a new spin on infestation, you’ll see
a tiny thing that calls itself a multinational corporation,
no bigger than a comma with a decimal head,
a reflex of life with the pituatary glands of a giant
who claims to own the rain in Bolivia, the arm pits
of western Africa, the people of Belize,
the grain belt of southern Saskatchewan and Alberta,
food, medicine, animals, diseases, fossils, oil, minerals, ore, genes
and the child labour of millions anywhere
there’s a dumpster with a constitution
that can’t borrow enough from the swine at the trough to eat; and this
is a legally verifiable person who doesn’t care, not a man,
but a maggot that lives in the nose
of the living and the dead like a merger in the boardroom
of a wounded world where everything is either
custard or pus. You don’t have to tell me you don’t care. You didn’t care in Armenia, Dachau, Palestine, Sabra
and Shatila, Cambodia, Chile, Tienanmin Square, Kent State, Watts,
Wounded Knee, Algeria, Vietnam, South Africa, Manchuria, Tibet,
Siberia, El Salvador, Belfast, Uganda, Argentina, Sudan and the Balkans,
and you don’t care now that there are children
with hep-C and aids who sell their bodies
like golden chariots in the sewer to support a habit
they learned on lullaby knees like a crutch or a church.
You don’t have to tell me you don’t care;
I can see the homeless everywhere treated like the broken glass
of an emergency someone eventually pulled
as a messed-up prank on the moon;
and the afflicted, the lonely, the addicted, the dispossessed and the aggrieved
hoping to leak out of what was crushed like wine
as the last paint rag of hope to staunch the wound
unspools like a rainbow on an oilslick
and agrees against the colour of their own eyes
that the best of dreams is just
a momentary refraction of black;
but you don’t have to tell me you don’t care,
I can hear the shriek of your non-existence
unplugging the tree from the fruit, the sun from the sky,
the star from the vine, the river from the sea everywhere
until all that’s left to excavate is a grave in the air
for the blown lightbulb that can’t weld back
the merest filament of its own severed lifelines.