Wait. Wait. Wait For It To Come
I've sung for my supper, sex, money, fame and meaning.
I've raised my voice like an axe on behalf
of people on the receiving end of the stick
and I've brought my winged heels down hard
on the skulls of slack snakes on railway tracks
when it became clear as an X-ray to me
they weren't fledgling dragons and the babies
were as toxic as the adults. Retreads on black asphalt,
most of their books, shedding their skins
as if they were laying rubber on well published roads
lined with critical road kill. Everybody underestimating
the monstrosity of a mythically inflated ego
with the mass of a black dwarf that's imploded
on itself like the withered daylily of a weather balloon.
Imagine the rapture of frogs in the rain
blissed out on the highbeams that will crush them
like chocolates with strawberry hearts.
And everybody grieves like a sieve
for the mystic mishaps of the lesser vehicle
But poetry isn't a joy ride for petty thieves,
and there are dangerous hitch-hikers, thumbs up
on the backwoods highways at night out in the starfields
poaching the horns of unicorns to sell on a black market
that doesn't believe one miracle's ever enough.
I may have been eclipsed by my own enlightenment,
but I can still shine. I radiate. I emanate. Every meteor's
got its radiant. And there are always stars in a poet's eyes
he hasn't got around to naming yet like diamonds in the rough.
My life might ring as hollow as an empty silo,
and yet I'm fulfilled. I'm ripe as the red end
of the spectrum, a windfall in the Hesperides,
all flavours of the lifesavers in the sunset.
My fear hasn't aged. My grief. My love. My imagination.
Strange recollections from dissonant hours,
I regret having mismanaged the retroactive exorcism,
of my childhood, but things get better the less they matter.
Even a shipwreck on the moon has oceanic powers
over the way the waters of life ride out the storm.
I take liberties with chaos and risk more than I have to lose,
bracing for the fall with an incommunicable form of the blues
that reconciles me to the unattainable by revealing
what's most human about me isn't a still life with apple piety,
not what I excelled at, but the bruise I achieved when I fell.